Ask the Holy Spirit to search your heart and mind and see if you need healing from any issues from the past that effect you today.  That could be:

• Baggage from past relationships that affect your current relationship
• Feeling driven in ministry instead of led by the Holy Spirit-what drives you?Sometimes it's the need for approval
• Is it hard for you to say "no" when your schedule is already past full?Can you set a healthy boundary?  How do you deal with stress?
• Do you use chemicals or certain behaviors to alter your mood so you can escape and feel better?

May the Lord bring deliverance, grace and peace as you seek him. Talk to someone, people care about you!

Dr. Gilliam